when i almost forgot how it feels to lose a friend...

when she came at the first time

when she killed my 'mouse' purposedly

when she got trapped in a box and rolled over in it

when we're both look pretty ^^

when she slept cutely

when she acted like a cool ones

when she had to do her side-job as a massage-girl (or cat??)

those happiest moments i spent together with her...

...and many other silly acts of her

...i lost her


today was an important day for me and my family, the day my one and only brother went abroad alone for the first time, having double degree program arranged by his faculty and erasmus uni in rotterdam, nederland. alone without any family around, only with a bunch of his friends... no doubt we were worried a lot 'bout him, of course, regarding his known behavior for his 19 years of life til this second, typical of the last child, if you get what i mean ;) the last 4 weeks were spent preparing all the thingies since his faculty seems "too care" with this double degree program, so it was all by ourselves from visa to departure, from residence permit prerequisites to the housing... for us, it's such a great wow plus a great dissappointment >:( i can't believe they arranged such an unprepared program!!

we're arrived at the airport at 9am, waiting 'bout 1 hour for the other members to come, and hoping that there're no more probs happen... but still, the f***ing luggage rules of max 32kgs for each baggage-through and max 5kgs for each cabin luggage made us repacked some of the stuffs in his already-tight baggage and throwing out some like a pair of suit, one winter vest, one jeans, and a goddamn thick book, before mixed it up with his other friend's cabin luggage to distribute the weight evenly. and it definitely makes us hungry... ;p

when the time has come to board the airplane, few parents--mothers, especially--are cried and hug their soon-to-be going child, including my mom. i knew this could be hard for her, for knowing my brother's behavior all this time, yet she has to let him go to prove that he can do what previously he can't do. but the jetplane's engine reminds us that this is one of a phase of life we must learn, that we'll wave our hands in order to hug'em when they're back. maybe that's the reason i didn't cry... (or maybe because i'm not a mother yet?? hahaha :D)

i'll see you in the upcoming new year, bro!

well then, bye-bye my big fat bandit cat...! promise me you'll be allright, pray well, eat well, and don't embarass me by spraying everywhere and scratching your seat in the plane!! ;p

*the title means: i will miss him


from 29072008 til 30072008 my family planned to spend a night in safari garden hotel, since at the same our beloved first niece was here--imported by his smart mom ;p--having holiday with his grandparents--my uncle and auntie. surprisingly, 6 families of my mom's siblings could make it!! so there i am, happily surrounded by my family, whole lot of my cousins and a niece... it's been quite a long time since i enjoyed this kinda holiday with my big family ^^ plus, my soon-to-be sis-in-law came from padang! even though she caught a cold the night when she arrived but she managed to catch up with us the next morning, of course, with some drugs and antibiotic in her bag... but still it's ok.

weeks before, my mom went to taman safari together with a workgroup of his office, having a leisure time after a meeting. she told us about a performance held there called "wild wild west: cowboy show", she said it was awesome, funny, with real horses, ducks, sheeps, eagle, and even mouse! so that right after we passed the entrance to the main amusement park we drove straight to the highest part of the hill to watch the show. before the gate was opened, we're being entertained with a small-but-nice country band wearing cowboys-like stuffs, and 15 mins before the show we're able to try using the cowboy leash, spankin' it!!

unfortunately we're not allowed to use video camera during the show--or else the security staff will warn us--so that taking photos were the only thing permitted, but trust me the show was really worth to watch!! the stage performance was nice, the actors and actresses make-up were good, two-thumbs-up for the combos of action and comedy, and not forgetting the real animals!! they're sooo damn cute!!! from ducks, horses, dogs, cats, mouse, sheeps, and eagle... it was outstanding!! i bet not only children, but you'll like it too ;)

oh, and btw... my happy holiday was even more completed with a happy news: my cousin's getting married next month!! i'm sooo happy for her so that i immediately messaging all my cousins 'bout it ^^ kyaaaa...

the soon-to-be bride ^^


*in memoriam of eyang mardiyati busono and eyang busono

2 weeks ago, at 13072008 to be exact, my lil' grandmother (younger sister of my grandmother) passed away. years before she was diagnosed with metastasized breast cancer and had radical mastectomy and a series of chemotherapy. my grandmother also had metastasized breast cancer, in fact that was the et causa of her death. my mom said that unlike my lil' grandmother, she had unilateral mastectomy, but at that time the tumor had already spread to lungs and vertebrae.

my lil' grandfather was famously known as a caring man and love her wife in an extraordinary way--one of a real gentlemen in the whole family--with his one unique habit of kissing his wife 50 times before and after sleep. after she underwent the radical mastectomy, she never want to see her post-op scar, since for her it was too scary. and it was his husband, for every night and day, applying the oinment medications to her scar, and still kiss her 50 times before and after sleep. there are no single women and girls in the whole family not envy her for having such a gentleman as her husband, including me.

fortunately, 2 weeks before my lil' grandmother passed away, me, my brother, and my cousin went to her house in bulaksumur after we received message from my mom which told us that from the last medical control found the tumor had metastasized to the femur and around pelvic bone so that she's no longer able to even stand and walk like usual, and spend the rest of her time lying in bed. when we met her that day, she greets us with her lovely smile and chat with us happily, asking about our parents and our study... and telling us story that makes me surprise: for the last 1 month, when she was no longer able to stand and need to stay in bed, it was her husband--my lil' grandfather--doing all the things for her! feed her, preparing her drugs, help her to bath, changing clothes, wearing adult pad, even he do the toilet himself... and he still kiss her 50 times before and sleep! when we asked him why he didn't call a nurse to take care of her, he replied, "it's to take care of her, i life in this world. as long as i could done it, i'll do it myself. if i'm not, then my life become useless."

*speechless for a moment*

at the day she passed away, his old and wrinkled face couldn't hide his sadness, his cloudy eyes stare straight, and looked empty. we all know how he loves his wife so much, that they're both needed each other, that he always protective to her, how he cares about her... and now that he lost his half part, i couldn't imagine how sad he is...

2 weeks later after her death, at 27072008 to be exact, my lil' grandfather passed away, went after his beloved wife. heart-attack, most probably. it is said that he was founded smile, more beautiful than his wife's when she passed away. i was sooo sad i couldn't help myself from a silent cry... for i clearly remember the last words he said when i came to his house 4 weeks ago.

you went after her, i know... you're both my real forever-and-after-not-even-death-will-do-us-apart couple, you've showed me the true meaning of love til the end...

...and i've lost one of the most gentlemen i've ever met.

there she goes...

...and he went after her