when will i wear it again?

*i'll miss being a coassisstant...

it's on the 2nd week of april 2007, if i'm not mistaken, when i came anxiously to the sardjito hospital as a new coassisstant for the first time. my thought was strangled with many kind of questions; will i able to pass this phase? will i do something wrong? will i accidentally messed up? will my patients be okay? will i get along with my new friends in the  group? will they accept me? will i be an individual or not? will everything be alright?? ...and at that  time, i was too afraid to answer all of those questions.

internal medicine was my first rotation, and as far as i can remember i've never been so diligent as when i was in this department; in my first week, when i was still a newbie knowing nothing and seemed to be lost in the middle of nowhere, i was assigned to assist a resident with the most patient counts in the ward, always more than 10 patients, and i'm alone! whereas some of my friends are lucky enough to be paired with fewer patient than mine!! T.T so there i am, the newbie, anxiously wake up every 4am--yeah, believe me, i was extremely too diligent at that time--to take bath, skipping breakfast, and drive away to the hospital, arrived at around 5.15am-5.30am carrying a heavy daily bag filled with some notes and internal med books, a hand-carry bag of a standard mercury sphygmomanometer, and not forgetting a small pink sling bag filled with a penlight, both digital and mercury thermometers, and a measuring tape. stethoscope? hanging on my neck ^^ i'm such an over-excited newbie anyway, apart that somehow i kinda want to be an internist someday regarding my mom's hidden illness that can't be cured up to this second, actually i really like studying internal meds. it's fascinating, in short. and still it is to me til now...

then the rotation went on and on... public health medicine and ear-nose-throat came shortly, followed by primary health care, dermatovenerology and psychiatry. together with 3 nurse coassisstants, we're spending 6 weeks in a primary health care in an outskirt-area of jogja. it was such a twilight for me, for being happy and unhappy. happy to face the patients as a "temporary real" doctor, and unhappy to know the reality of this country's medical facilities... like using some kind of drugs that actually had been banned? and a poor child with thalassemia who lived in such an unproper house and unable to afford any medications. i just can't help my tears from falling... T.T back then in my final year of undergrad, i did my thesis in dermatovenereology department, it's about keloid, a supposedly-to-be-simple biomolecular experiment using ultraviolet light, but i ended up in more than 12 months to finished it. frustrating, i've to confess, but that was the first time i found out that dermatovenereology attracts me. well... not until i get into the real rotation. some pros and cons happened in me when i was in the real set, and, yes, it disappoints me... and psychiatry?? nothing special, for the clinical part itself, but in the other part, the so-called-newly-formed-friendship had just getting stronger and better; as if our life were stopped around restaurants to eat and any comfortable desks to play poker--and, hey, i once played poker while i'm driving to a satellite hospital, y'know?? hahaha--plus a special thing for me to reminisce and again for my long-lasting i-know-it-and-i-can-do-it attitude: i drive myself and 3 friends to banyumas and back home, without changing driver. ooh i just love how it feels!

then obsgyn came, a nightmare for coassisstants that have been a legend for decades. and it happens to me. spending my 2 weeks out of total 8 weeks of the rotation in klaten, i lost my weight from 46 to 43-44 kgs. and for the first time of my life, me, who always been a food-eater and awarded by my dad as a "small-motorized-vehicle-with-double-decker-bus-capacity", or in indonesian language: "bemo muatan bis tingkat"--yeah, i eat more than you thought if you saw my figure ;p--but at that time, i craved for sleep more than for eat!! apart that i always amaze witnessing every second of the laboring process, it was a real tiring rotation. so no, i don't wanna be an obsgyn. no-uh.

having surgery rotation after obsgyn was such a heaven. thank God, i'm lucky enough for being created as female, regarding those 95% of surgery residents were male--if you got what i mean ;)--and having a killer urologist as my examiner was not a real problem, at all ;) ;) ;)

pediatric was supposedly another nightmare besides obsgyn, but spending 4 weeks in klaten was a real fun, and definitely not a nightmare like obsgyn. the pediatricians are nice and kind, especially our tutor, like i wrote before in here. i never know how it feels to have a grandfather, and i really want him as mine if i could :)

ophthalmology and neurology were another "heavenly" rotations. but not with anesthesiology after that. it was horrible horrible horrible. and waaaaay more tiring than obsgyn, well... imagine that, just like i wrote here. but radiology and forensic became such a happily-ever-after ending for my clinical rotation. it was fun, it wasn't tiring at all, and together with my sisterhood and brotherhood of kero gang--beware of it!--and culinary team, i've finished that 20-months-most-important-phase-of-my-life. i'll miss the hospital. i'll miss the patients. i'll miss all the rush happens. i'll miss all the troubles. i'll miss the night duty. i'll miss the canteens. i'll miss the smell of the public ward. i'll miss the freezing operating room. i'll miss the green and blue uniform. i'll miss the bedside study. i'll miss being "disappear" between working hours.

i'll miss being a coassisstant.

i really will.


when i almost forgot how it feels to lose a friend...

when she came at the first time

when she killed my 'mouse' purposedly

when she got trapped in a box and rolled over in it

when we're both look pretty ^^

when she slept cutely

when she acted like a cool ones

when she had to do her side-job as a massage-girl (or cat??)

those happiest moments i spent together with her...

...and many other silly acts of her

...i lost her


last tuesday, 09092008, me and one of my co-ass group member spend a nite in solo, in one of our friend's house. she promised to treat us regarding her birthday last month, and we've made a sort of list of yummiest foods in solo to eat... such as, nasi liwet keprabon, timlo solo, selat solo, bistik, tengkleng, mandarin orion, and srabi notosuman. in the evening, after we break our fast, we drive to a place called pgs--pusat grosir solo--where plenty of famous food stalls from around the city gathered in a city walk. trust me, that place smells like heaven and oooh we just can't waaaaait to eeaaaaat!!! ;9~~

1st round, selat solo and nasi kabsha

unfortunately, we couldn't have selat mbak lies she promoted, and this selat has a thick soup (supposedly the light one... but it's ok) and sliced beef instead of a classic burger-look-alike meat,  with no mayo, and scrambled egg instead of a sunny side. fortunately, i was damn hungry... and my taste bud doesn't have any taste bud types except for 'good' and 'very good' food. so i cleaned up the whole plate in less than 15mins!! ^^ ...and i still can eat moooore ;)

in the other plate, nasi kabsha tastes just like nasi kebuli, but its sweet sour sauce with slices of pineapples was definitely nice!! spicy, sweet, and sour... hmmm what could we ask for more??

2nd round, bistik populer and sate kere a.k.a sate tempe gembus

it's a bit funny when i found out that the bistik looks similar with the previous selat, but it's presented in a right way as a classic bistik: a burger-look-alike meat with an extra sunny side egg, steamed potato wedges, peas, carrots, thick soup, and no mayo... oh well, feels like i'm eating the same thing before but n'mind, i'm still hungry and the previously grilled meat was sooooo tasty!! the thickness of the soup fits well with the meat, and again... i finished it in less than 15mins. do i have a rubber gastric or what?? ;p 

our last menu that nite is sate kere, made specially from tempe gembus. i knew that somehow this food was quite famous, but still i'm not very sure 'bout it til we order a portion. yuuuuuummmm!! the tempe was previously cooked with some typical javanese ingredients, then grilled just as an ordinary sate, but then bathe with a thick peanut sauce sprinkled with black pepper and small chilis... it was such a purrrfect desert for me ^^ and of course, it's recommended to try!

last but not least, thanks a lot to miss hutchu for the wonderful evening, and i'm still eagerly wait for the next invitation ;* love you!

me featuring the sate kere ^^


last 01082008 was an important day for me: i met with the girls from my junior high!! ^^ omg... it's been 8 years since we're graduate from junior high, when they came to my eyes i couldn't believe the fact that i saw'em all... it was too happy to be true. one of'em brought her collections of our vintage photos, yeah that kinda photos when we still wore loose uniform shirts, plain face without any make-ups, short socks, keds... and act like weirdos! (if you see our photos then you'll get what i mean ;p) hahaha *LOL* we really missed those times that we laugh for every photos taken, we really do ;)

ahh... girls, i'll looking forward to our reunion next year!! i love you, i'll miss you, always... ;*

*last but not least, bye-bye my lovely holiday...