...i'll be sleeping neatly in my first home! i've got all my stuffs in my bag, 2 dresses, 1 jeans, some bath and body care stuffs, ticket in my wallet... ahh if only i could go home today!! >,< *sighsighsigh*

i miss being home--even only for 9days--sooo much! that's enough reason for tomorrow should be my last day of pediatric exam, should be!! i'll swap all the things from nutrition status, growth and development, immunization, newborn and probs, shock and so... exactly before jumat pray!

"c'mon, doc... i need my holiday, CITO!!" (cited from my current friendster shoutout)

*a febrile seizure is a convulsion in a child triggered by a fever

today is my 1st day of pediatric exam, together with 2 of my friends, 3 of us headed to klaten (again) this morning to have our exam. lucky us! there are enough new patient admissions so each of us could get 1 patient for exam, at first we thought that it was dengue and friends... since the last time we're doing our jobs here it was dengue all over the pediatric ward. but we're missed, now it's the febrile seizure season! 1 of us got the simple one, the other 2 got the complex... (i got the complex one ;p)

after the morning visit, 3 of us hurry up doing all the examinations; history taking, immunization status, pedigree, growth and developmental status, physical exam, anthropometric measurements etc and then write nervously on our medical record paper made for exam. i don't know why, but i do feel nervous, although i'm lucky enough having a nice(st) specialist as my examiner. but still, an exam is an exam Xp

at 12.30pm i've finished completing my whole medical record, put it in a green map and placed it on my examiner's desk. 30 minutes later he came and we went back to the ward having my physical examinations evaluated. i did it fast, or maybe it's too fast that i could feel my heart palpitates a bit more than usual and sweats my hand while percussed and auscultated the child, somehow i could feel my hands become slippery... oh well, i just hope it'll be okay with my examiner! (and God i hope he didn't see the nervous me!!)

pfiuuuhh... now it's time to study the theories!!

*title taken from paul mccartney's "this never happened before", ost of the lake house

this evening i turn on the tv right after i dropped off my brother to the airport--he went back to jakarta tonite, and there it is... i found a movie i've watched 2 years ago with him, the romantic drama starred by mr. reeves and mrs. bullock; the lake house. he said that this movie is actually a remake from an asian movie (korean or taiwan? i dunno...), so back when we watched this movie in the cinema he simply knew how's the story gonna ended.

i know that a happily-ever-after ending for such a romantic drama movie is likely a must, despite however the story goes, but watching this movie again has made me realize (again) that probably, probably there could be a miracle happen between two people. ok, maybe in this movie showed it a bit over... like the mailbox which act as the time-tunnel-kinda for both of them, for me it's quite unbelievable, but the way we'll find the right one for each one of us, in an unbelievable way?? i do believe in that ^^

later, the soundtrack of this movie keeps on humming in my head since ;p

i'm very sure, this never happened to me before
i met you and now i'm sure
this never happened before

now I see, this is the way it's supposed to be
i met you and now i see
this is the way it should be

this is the way it should be, for lovers
they shouldn't go it alone
it's not so good when your on your own

so come to me, now we can be what we want to be
i love you and now i see
this is the way it should be
this is the way it should be

this is the way it should be, for lovers
they shouldn't go it alone
it's not so good when your on your own

i'm very sure, this never happened to me before
i met you and now i'm sure
this never happened before~ this never happened before
this never happened before~ this never happened before
this never happened before~ this never happened before
this never happened before

*i do looove karaoke!!

today i went to sardjito hospital to do some stuffs for my upcoming pediatric exam, i walk here and there but still for some reasons it can't be finished today, oh well... n'mind, then me and my friends decided to go home since there's nothing we can do to accelerate our exam. so i have one of my friends dropped me to my car outside the hospital, turned on my engine... and it just popped out of my mind; i haven't been to karaoke for quite a long time.

i realize i'm having a sore throat for these last 2 weeks, but i just don't care. the sun outside was damn hot, i'm damn thristy, and i'm craving to sing ;p so i drive myself to happy puppy, where me, my family and friends usually went for karaoke.

when i'm arrived, there are not much people waiting in the lobby for an empty lounge, but i don't wanna waste my time so i just give my member card to the receptionist and having a medium room just for myself ^^ (and i message him and my brother just in case if they wanna join me later), then when i sat on the couch i realize that i reaaally miss karaoke a lot! i typed all the songs i want to sing in a hurry: "sunday morning", "soulmate", "dia", "you", "since i found you", "cinta jangan kau pergi", "bahasa kalbu", "keliru", "all i am", "semenjak ada dirimu", "truly", "because of you", and so on... guess i was singing about 1 hour non-stop, then i realize my throat was really in pain and i quickly ordered a warm orange juice and a plate of cheese french fries. hmm... yum! ;p maybe it's not only the karaoke i'm missing, but for having a leisure time like this after an 8 weeks of sickness of being in hospital... it was really fun!

omg... i've never thought that my last week of pediatric clinical rotation in sardjito's perinatology room would be like this, too horrible to be true. imagine this, for the last 4 weeks in klaten i could have some extra sleep after subuh pray and wake up at 7.30am, having my breakfast, take a slow bath, then drive away at 8.30am or even 8.45am, and still i could make it there on time, but this week?? i've to be there on perinatology room b-e-f-o-r-e 7am!! yeah rite i'm having a terrible jet lag... plus, we couldn't get out from that room during the working hours (7am-2pm), yeah 7 hours of sitting in a boring room and without any foods and drinks allowed (dine and drink only allowed in a pantry which is quite dirty, and most of the time filled with hungry and thirsty nurses), i'm totally sick of just sitting and being jailed for 7 hours like that, really. fortunately the first 3 days there are no supervisors since all the staffs headed to surabaya attending a huge meeting, so we're able to touch the babies (of course after spraying our hands thousand times each time before and after, and you know it'll make a girl's hand dry... T.T) to do follow-up every morning and noon, but since yesterday all of them are coming back, and there goes our nightmare begin worse...

there's a supervisor, a female pediatrician, having an advance skill putting us--poor co-assisstants--in a thrilling ambience everytime she's near. the way she stares, the way she talks, and yes you have to be there to feel what kinda thriller ambience i told before, but believe me, it's thrilling us.. today the boys all went back first for doing jumat pray, and the rest of us, all girls, still desperately sitting there and we're too scared to go out even we're just want to go to the toilet! the et causa is clear, today's supervisor is her... the thrilling-ambience-pediatrician. we've been warned by our friends having perinatology roon rotation before us, that if she's the supervisor of the day, we have to keep stay in the room, don't you dare to even go out and walking around, take off all your accessories, watches, braces, rings, evrything! and don't you dare to eat or drink (unless in that small room i told you before) for she'll stare you in a scary way and having you punished with remedial in perinatology room ranging from 1 day to the whole week. imagine that, being jailed, again, for 7 hours, in a thrilling ambience, sitting til bored to death!! one of my teammates even said that this just similar like the way we used to wait for maghrib in ramadhan, but different is in here we're waiting with mumbling, grumbling, grunting, and asking to each of every one of us, "what time is it now?" in every 10 minutes, neither with pray nor read Quran. i even said that 4 weeks in klaten were much better than being in sardjito's perinatology room for 1 week, it's true. and there she suddenly, finally goes to our room, clearly stated that we're not allowed to eat and drink, take off all accessories, or else she'll punish us with remedial in perinatology room (hell no!!), and we're just stare her like we're liliputs and she's gulliver. i am soo terribly desperate...

(and i still have 1 more day to be there tomorrow... ou my dear Lord help me!!)

meet them, my beloved teammates during our pediatric clinical rotation. well actually there are 5 of us, but the other one seems a bit shy to be captured here ;) we've spend these last 4 weeks together in klaten, in a hospital where we have to spend our time most. from perinatology room to the ward to the daily clinic... and here we are, gladly facing the fact that this saturday will be our last day there!! it's not that we're not having a good time and not much to be learned... but spending the whole 4 weeks in a same place? for me, i'm bored to death Xp thank God we don't have any heavy tasks, but it's become boring if you really don't have anything to do... like few patients in the ward? how do i'm expected to learn more?? at least our supervisor there was nice, yes he is nice, and i do really like him ^^ a javanese typical grandfather, with low-profile appearance everytime facing us or his patients. despite the fact that he's quite busy and he's a bit lazy too having discussion with more if it lasts more than 1pm.. yeah i know i'm infected with acute lazyness virus already too, but n'mind... it'll be over in a few days!! yeay!!

it's us!! ;)

*aaah... they're back! they're back!! those lovely silly couple of nodame and chiaki!!

have u ever watch the tv shows "nodame cantabile" before? it's a j-drama adapted from a manga with the same title, guess it is a successful story after all... for it continues to anime and live action, and it does! actually i found these special episode coincidentally, when i went to an otaku store somewhere behind kfc iain with him and my brother after having our breakfast in colombo street. at first i just wanna borrow the anime version of it,  but then the shopkeeper said that there's a new special episodes of its live action... and of course, i couldn't helped it to not bring it home with me! not to mention that three of us really like its story, a romantic-comedy drama, filled with classical music athmosphere, a cute one ;) i still remember a scene from the last episode, when chiaki went to okawa looking for nodame and when he coincidentally met her in the seaside street, run to her and hug her from the back... omg, that was my favorite scene of all!

see? aren't they look so sweet??

and so the story goes to prague, where they went to watch one of viera-sensei's concerto. i never thought this story would be continued til they went abroad and so... for how much money they'll spend to make it til there, but they do! but as expected since this special episode consist only 4x50-something minutes, they make it short til it reach nodame's first mozart recital and chiaki's first debut as his prize for winning the platini conducting competition (if you read the manga it should be more than 10 episodes needed til there), but since they shorten it quite well and they've done a  good effort finding a mutual cast for jean donnadieu and other european casts (even though they dub the voice with japanese later on) satisfied me well ^^

hmm... now i can't wait to read the next volume of its manga, so hurry up ninomiya tomoko!!

*this is why i dislike indonesian horror movies

today i went back from klaten as usual, somehow i'm quite tired a bit--surprisingly for doing nothing. back then he called me right before i entered my car, asked me to go out for lunch and watch movies. there we are... standing in front of the one and only cinema in this lil' city, and actually i just lost my appetite to watch movie in a sudden. there are 5 studios with 3 indonesian horror movies, 1 indonesian drama comedy (i think), and the other one is hulk (and we watched it already). when he asked me to choose the movie, i give up. it'll be the hardest answer i ever give today, so i let him choose. we bought the tickets, having lunch (til we both deadly full ;p), bought some cds, and i accompanied him playing a racing game before the studio opened.

if it wasn't him i'm going out with, i'll probably put more effort to persuade to not watch the movie. it was horrible. just as i thought. it's about a girl initialed 'R' who is accidentaly died falling from stairs in her bf's house when she saw her bf having sex with another woman (which is later known that this another woman was already married! freako!!). the cheated couple being freaked out,  so that they hide R's body in the bushes. R's dad was very angry when he knows that his daughter died, for he was very sure someone responsible for her death. on the cemetery, he whispered to R's dead body and told her (in a very, very odd way) to stay in the world until she finds the ones responsible for her death and--of course, as usual; revenge. then the story goes... this and that, 'til at the end the cheated couple were dead--again, in a very, very odd way. based on what we've learned this past 5 years, people won't easily died that way. it was sooo cinetron-look-alike. apart from that horrible movie, on the way back home i turn on one of the cds i've just bought, and say... it was really good. a japanese (i think) female vocalist with soft voice--he said, singing our era's evergreen jazzy love songs rearranged in bossas style, and we both loved it!

...what a contrary with the movie ;p